Arghh this is frustrating alright ! I am trying to change , you may laugh as much you want but at one point everyone wants to change but it depends on thyself .
Last night I was helping one of my friend , whose name shall not be known . lets just call that person "X" .Well this is how the story goes , X goes through a break up which breaks X's heart really badly . Okay being humanist you will definitely help X right???I helped and it's been two days we are talking , somehow awkwardly X and I are found to have a lot of similarities . It's normal to to talk and find things which are similar but brain frequency and wavelength ??? It's the same and it is scary .
Well come back to the story , X is being desperate and finding it hard to forget the partner. while X was talking bout X's love life , I felt some thing that I have long lost . Those memories came back every single one , no matter it was good nor bad but it came back as if some one just rewind the time to back then . Everything felt real , as if i was reliving it again . Those feelings are scary and spooky. It reminded me of the old me , the one who is proud and has lots of attitude problem . I miss the old me ? Nawh! I prefer being this Thameesha .
Each time we talk about a topic it somehow will make me feel and think whether I am teaching and advising X correctly . What if I am wrong ? What if I make X have low self-esteem ? The "what if" doubts are killing my nights like before . I turn to God for help and rational thoughts , pushing myself to think and do more positively acts .Are the advises I give to X worthy to X ? Or am I just being busybody . At times , I want to mind my own business but X is my friend and if I don't try to help who will .
Too many doubts hope I can be a comfortable shoulders to lean on and also an attentive listener to X . And I pray X gets better and find the will power within thyself . =]
