There comes a point in everyone's life, they tend to grow wiser and think rationally. I feel over the past few years of my life many events have occurred, may it be good nor bad but what I know it will be for the best at one time. What I have learn is just a tiny part of life. I have learn how it was to lose someone we love, how to overcome temper, how to keep going on with live etc.
Let's start with losing someone dear to our heart. My late father, Mr.Rathakrishnan he passed away on the 16th of April 2012 (59 years old). The cause of death was kidney malfunction due to the radiotherapy treatment (for his cancer) that was too strong for his immune system to fightback. Ever since he was diagnosed with advance cancer, he
suffered mentally and physically. It wasn't easy seeing him in pain neither we could help him much. However he did not let go and give in to the disease. He fought with all he had left in him even in his last breathe. I could still picture him on the hospital bed unable to speak, move, and even eat! His memory was in good shape, there were times he would suddenly call out for my mother. The day he slipped into coma I was still at work, when I found out bout the news I rushed to the hospital. While I was speaking to him. he suddenly grabbed my hand tight without letting me go for at least an hour but he spoke nothing. The next day during his brother's visit, he shouted at his brother "I am better than you" and went back into coma, that gave us a shock and relief at the same time. Shock was because he yelled back to his brother, and relief because he could still hear us. The last day, my father never left his sight on my mother, he stared at my mother throughout his last moments and then he left us at 2 in the afternoon. At that point it was hurtful and full of sadness yet a part of me was grateful that he has no more sufferings and pain to endure, that thought keeps me going in my life. Due to my late dad, I realized that my temper has reduced to a level where I realized that anger brings nothing but destruction and agony. I didn't achieve anything by being angry but acted foolishly in front of people. Temper blinds one's rationality, I have to say that's very true. When a person's angry, he/ she doesn't know what he is speaking, and this is the time when words are sharper than knives. Life is going to throw you many obstacles and difficulties, it lays on the individual's mindset to move on and learn the experiences.
Everyone has their own journey and experiences to go through, the person has to nurture the grass on their side because no matter which side the grass grow it will only be greener when its well-watered. To move on without learning is not moving on at all, moving on should consist of learning and understanding the mistakes that happened and try to not repeat it again. It is also about accepting how vulnerable one could be in different situations and how well one's flaws are handled.
Well these things are merely few thoughts that are on my mind at the moment. I miss my father a lot these days. I have learned a lot with and without him around us. In everyone's life there will be that time where you lose someone dear to you, it is then when you learn how to appreciate the dearest at all times.